Sunshine in a cloudy mind

Excuse me while I hold my tongue and breathe my last. I’ve been at this far too long for it to ever make any sense. She drives me crazy, I can’t live a day without him. I’ve been putting in more effort than it’s worth, what have I reaped from what I’ve sown except more debt? I want so many things that are just out of reach. I need one more chemical to make my life complete. I don’t love him for his money, I loved him when he was broke, and he loves me now that I’m broke. We take care of each other, because that’s what soulmates do. I can’t argue with you madame; with you, I am quite through.

Sometimes I hate being a human…. We’re so full of evil…. Animals are only evil because we make them into monsters…. We were born monsters…. I just wish we could learn from the animals and do only what we have to do to survive…. I was watching Good Pets gone Bad, and they had one scene where people were driving horses to fight each other. Why? Because of humans blood lust. We can’t get enough of violence when it’s at the expense of someone else. Romans used to have gladiators; human slaughter was their favorite past time, as well as animal vs. human slaughter… Why do we do this? Why are we so… evil?

I once heard the heartbeat of the ocean

It was faint, but strong.
I listened to the lull of the rhythm in which all its vast waters lived.

I once heard the heartbeat of the ocean

I was sinking, drowning, frantically pawing for that thing which makes life so precious. I was doomed until the heart awakened me.

I once heard the heartbeat of the ocean

The silence, at first deafening, soon began to soothe my panicked mind. I closed my eyes and was enveloped in the entirety of the ocean. I could feel every creature in the mysterious waters. We became one, she and I, for an instant, and I lived.

I once heard the heartbeat of the ocean